Tuesday, January 28, 2014

A day in the life

I1:35am - bean is softly crying down the hall which means it's time to eat - change his diaper and start feeding
2:11am - finish feeding, swaddle the bean and head downstairs to grab pump parts
2:21-2:31am - pump 2oz while reading wolf of Wall Street - head downstairs to rinse parts, label bottle, climb back into bed
3:14am - bean starts crying again - how can he still be hungry?!? Reswaddle, pacifier, climb back into bed
3:35am - still crying - ok fine!! Let's get this kid fed
3:44-4:08am - nom nom time, reswaddle, climb back into bed
4:20am - and we're crying again - change diaper, reswaddle, cuddle in rocker until he falls back to sleep
4:40am - finally back to bed for this mama
6:05am - and we are right back at it - change the wet diaper and get the kid some boob
6:40am - attempt one more round of sleep
7:05am - here we go again - this time I wake bob up and ask him to check on the bean
7:20am - I realize there's a screaming baby and my husband is in the shower - back down to bean's room to see if I can comfort him.  I lay him on my chest and hold him nice and close while climbing back under the covers - we both fall back asleep
8:10am - bean's belly buzzer is going off so we get a fresh diaper on and it's time to eat 
8:53am - done eating and a fresh clean diaper on - dressed and ready to go for the day - now it's mommy's turn to get clean
9:16am - emerge from the shower feeling like a brand new person until I realize Bean is crying away in his crib - quickly get dressed and see what's up - give him the pacifier and head down to the basement to start his laundry
9:40am - grab a Special K bar and Gatorade - back upstairs to tend to a fussy Bean
9:55 - knowing we have a dr appointment at 11, nurse bean so he isn't fussy at the dr
10:25 - change diaper and get ready to head to the dr
11:00 - 11:45 - visit with Dr Shah - Bean is back to gaining weight!! He's up to 7lbs 14.1oz and the dr is very happy with how he is progressing - Stop at Starbucks on way home to reward myself for his nonstop feedings
12:00pm - throw frozen pizza slices in the oven and prep dinner in the crockpot while Bean is still asleep in car seat 
12:20pm - Bean starts fussing but I take this opportunity to switch his laundry over  - too much to do today to stop the momentum
12:30pm - attempt to eat lunch while Bean is STILL sleeping (this is unheard of)
12:33 - I spoke too soon
12:40 - and he's back asleep
1:15 - it was only a matter of time before he shot himself in the face while getting his diaper changed
1:40 - done with feeding and away we go to fold the Bean laundry and try for a nap though this is the time of day that he likes being awake for a little while
1:55 - mommy decided she wanted some snuggle time instead
4:15pm - woot!  Bean got a good nap in even though I was not able to fall asleep.  Finished Bean's laundry and caught up on last night's Blacklist and The Following - now time for a diaper change and another feeding
5:10pm - and we are done feeding - time to figure out what else to make with dinner and see if I can put him in his crib long enough to pee (yes this is the first time I am peeing since I got dressed this morning)
6:15pm - Bean really doesn't want a nap or anything so that means lots of rocking in my arms
6:40pm - Bean managed to pee through the side if his diaper so it's time for a wardrobe change and clean diaper and let's throw a feeding in there while we're at it
7:15pm - can finally sit down and eat dinner followed by some much needed husband/wife couch cuddling.  We hadn't done that since my water broke...and I finally fell asleep for a nap
9:30pm - Bean starts fussing for food
10:07pm - beans first stretch of nighttime sleeps 
11:43 - haha yea that didn't happen - off and on cries until I finally caved and asked bob to give him a bottle (of breast milk)

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Skin to skin (Birth Story Part 2)

After Tripp came out and was happily screaming away the nurses brought him over to the newborn table to get unofficial measurements and clean him off so we could have some skin to skin time.

It was so unreal to have them place this beautiful and perfect little boy onto my chest.  Everything I had just been through could not have prepared me for the rush of love I felt for that little guy.  I'm still in awe that he is actually here and not just an extension of my belly.

We got to have some bonding time and attempted to breastfeed while I got stitched up and delivered the placenta and they did some quick cleaning of the area.  Then Tripp and daddy went up to the nursery for his first real bath, official measurements, and footprints.  By the time the boys were done it was time for me to make my way to the recovery room.

When we were all settled in, we tried breastfeeding again.  Tripp didn't take to it like the champ I hoped he would be but we stuck with it and tried a bunch of different holds and positions to get him to latch.  He finally did and there was a knock at the door - both sets of grandparents and Aunt Lizzy were there to see our sweet boy.  This was the beginning of the end of shame.  I told them that I don't care if they don't care and everyone came in while Tripp was eating away.  I have come to learn that it's no big deal if people see my son feeding on my boobs - it's a fact of life.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

And then it was time...(Birth Story Part 1)

At my 39 week appointment (Thursday 1/9) I was a little disappointed to hear that though I was dilated to 3cm already, my cervix was still high and back.  I hadn't felt any contractions yet, or at least not that I was aware of, and aside from losing my mucus plug several days earlier, I wasn't having any signs of labor, but my doctor was hopeful that things would progress.  She stripped my membranes which just felt a bit uncomfortable but nothing new in that department and I went for a quick ultrasound with the tech to make sure my fluids were fine and he was in position -- check and check!  As I was about to leave the nurse practitioner, who I saw regularly prior to her going on maternity leave, was back and so we caught up a bit and when I told her about the mucus plug and sweeping the membranes she said she would put money on it that I would go into labor within the next 3 days.

Bob and I were very excited that evening and every time I got up to go to the bathroom he thought it was because labor had begun...only it wasn't.  When I woke up the next morning we were both a bit disappointed that nothing happened overnight.  I continued to bounce around on the yoga ball, ate hot sauce on EVERYTHING, and had several cups of Red Raspberry Leaf Tea with my fingers crossed that we would head to the hospital.  By 9pm (Friday 1/10) nothing new had happened and though I was feeling crampy, no contractions.  We decided to relax on the couch and watch Shark Tank.  My friend had just texted me asking what was up and I had just explained how we were both disappointed but trying to make the best of it when it felt like I was slowly peeing my pants.  I stopped moving around and looked at Bob and said "I think my water just broke".  I headed upstairs and sure enough had soaked through my underwear....so I called my doctor's office to see if I should head to the hospital even though I wasn't having any contractions.  She gave me the green light and I started to panic.  Were we ready for this?!

While I was on the phone with the doctor, Bob was putting things away in our house and tidying up.  Only my husband would clean the house when my water broke and we should've been on our way to the hospital.  Because I wasn't in pain, I stayed in the car with Bob as he parked and we slowly made our way up to the maternity ward.  We went through pre-admissions testing around 10:30pm where they swabbed me to see if it was in fact amniotic fluid and not that I just peed my pants....the swab came back negative :( More disappointment.  The nurse said she would get a resident to come and do an exam to see if I was dilated and take a slide to see if it was amniotic fluid.  The resident confirmed that my water broke but said I was only 1cm dilated, 50% effaced, and baby was at a -2 station.  For those of you keeping track, you need to be at 10cm, 100% and +3 to push so you can imagine how discouraging that was to hear...but I was being admitted which was a plus!  They called my doctor and I was off to a labor room to start my IV with Pitocin to bring along the contractions.

  • 12:15am (Saturday 1/11) and I was officially hooked up and being monitored.  
  • 1:45 contractions began and at this point they felt like very mild menstrual cramps.  Annoying enough that I couldn't really sleep but still very very manageable.  
  • 2:45am contractions were 2-3 minutes apart, lasting 40 seconds, but still a dull pain.
  • 4:00am and the nurse checked me out.  I was 3.80cm dilated.  My cervix was thin and bean's head was low.  The nurse estimated it would be another 10-12 hrs before I would have to start pushing.  The pain was at about a 5 at this point.
  • 5:00am and the contractions are getting worse and worse though they were still about 2-3 minutes apart so I decided to ask about an epidural.  We weren't sure how long it would take for the anesthesiologist so we figured we would ask about it just to prep....well it turns out at 5am not many people are in need of the anesthesiologist so he was available within 10 minutes.....so I got the epidural.  I was so afraid of how much it would hurt and a bit disappointed in myself for requesting one.  I wanted to go as long as possible without it, but if the nurse was estimating I would be in labor for a while longer, I wasn't sure I'd be able to suck up the pain.
  • 6:00am and my MIL was texting Bob to see if she should call out of work so we asked the nurse to check me again.  At this point I was 4cm dilated but things were progressing nicely.  The nurse estimated a later afternoon delivery.  Because I had the epidural I used this time to get some much needed sleep.
  • 8:35am and now I felt like I had to poop.  There was soooo much pressure in my butt that the new nurse (we had a shift change) saw it on the monitor and came in to check me.  I was 7.5cm dilated and she could feel the baby's head so they decided to go ahead and call my dr in.  We were shocked by how quickly I was progressing, but it was great to know that my body was doing what it needed to do.
  • by 9:30 my doctor had arrived and I was feeling so much pressure and thought for sure I was going to poop the baby out. My doctor said I was 8cm almost 9 and it would be at least 30 minutes before it was time to start pushing.  She left the labor room to fill out some paperwork and I began to ball my eyes out.  I couldn't believe that it had progressed so quickly and wasn't sure I would be able to not poop myself.  At this point Bob went into full on coach mode.  He helped me breathe through the contractions and kept me pretty focused.
  • 9:45am and my body was ready to push.  The nurse checked me out and I was 9.75cm dilated and it was basically go time.  The nurses went ahead and paged my doctor.  This is when time sped up.  She put on her scrub cap and gloves.  The nurses moved the labor table closer and began prepping for Bean's arrival.  My legs went up into stirrups and Bob held one while the nurse held the other.  My doctor kept telling me to wait for the contraction to begin, take a deep breath, push like I was pooping and hold it for 10 seconds.  Then release, take another deep breath and repeat.  I did this for what seemed like forever but was really only about 30 minutes.  After the first 5 or so contractions and pushing my doctor had a pep talk with me.  She told me I needed to stop whining and focus, that I couldn't release my breath and stop pushing until 10 seconds was over and to really bear down and push like I mean it.  At this point I wanted to give up...the pressure hurt so much and I didn't feel like I was making any progress.  Thank god for my husband because he was watching while coaching and would give me updates like "I see his hair.  He has a full head of dark beautiful hair."  and "I can see his head, you're almost there."  Hearing this from him in between contractions helped get me through...knowing how much further I had to go.  When I had about 3 big pushes left his head was almost completely out and I had to stop pushing so the doctor could maneuver his shoulders out.
  • 10:15am - Robert Thomas Olson III - "Tripp" - was born.  Everything became very hazy and I started to cry because he was out but not crying.  I thought for certain that something was wrong with my baby because it felt like he had been out for an eternity and still hadn't cried yet -- well it was because his nose and mouth were full of goop that needed to be sucked out.  Once that was done he was happily screaming away.

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

To mini crib or not to mini crib, that was the question

Part of the problem when imagining Bean's nursery was the fact that it was really our office and a rather small room.  When we first bought the house, what is now Bean's nursery was staged as a bedroom with green plaid wallpaper and a twin sized bed.  The whole room is only about 10' x 10'.

It's not a very big room, but we didn't want to lose the guest room and let's be real here...babies are tiny and really don't need a giant room...Bean's not going to need a bigger room until he's a teenager and by then who knows if we'll still be in this house or if we made a big renovation by then.  The big problem that we faced was that the crib that we originally wanted 

was 57 inches wide and there would only be one place to put it which meant not having room for very much other furniture.
I know the picture doesn't make it look like it takes up that much space, but trust me -- it would've been the only piece of furniture in the room...so I took to the web and did some research on mini-cribs.  A typical mini-crib is only 40 inches long which meant we would be able to put it in several different locations and get the two other pieces from Ikea that we were eyeing (the Hemnes 3-drawer dresser and the Hemnes tall 5-drawer dresser).  After researching mini-cribs for what seemed like ever, we decided to take a shot with it.  Unlike a standard sized crib, a mini-crib converts to a twin (vs. a full) and, realistically, that's all that room would be able to handle anyway.  Almost every website/review I read about the mini-crib said that the family kept their child in it until about 2 years old and then converted them to a twin with rails.  This seemed feasible and like a good idea.  All signs pointed to the mini-crib being our answer....so we went with it.  I'm sure I will update when Bean is here and in his crib and again when he has grown out of it and it's time to convert (though by then, maybe baby #2 will be brewing).

Another big dilemma we had was that I really wanted the two dressers from Ikea along with a nightstand and rocker to go in the room.  Well, my parents decided their gift to us for the Bean would be his bedroom furniture (aside from the crib) and when they went to Ikea they made the executive decision that all of the pieces we wanted would NOT fit in that room.  When my mother told me that, I was so pissed off.  What do you mean they wouldn't fit?  I plugged everything into the little room planner and the picture looks like it would be fine!  How dare you!! (I was on a pregnant lady rampage that day).
See?  Everything would've fit just fine!  Roar!!
Well, it's a good thing they didn't get us the tall dresser and only got the 3 drawer and the nightstand because once the husband put together the crib and the 3drawer dresser (which would also be used as our changing table) it became quite obvious that pictures are deceiving and there would be no room for another dresser in there.
We also were pretty set on having the crib right when you open the door and the changing table on the wall by itself.  Once we moved things into position, Bob's concern was "Where does the diaper pail go?"  We couldn't trek the stinky poopy diapers from one side of the room to the other and there definitely wasn't any room near the dresser/changing table to put the pail....so we rearranged.  Overall, looking back on the great furniture dilemma of 2013 -- I'm glad my parents intervened and we went with fewer pieces because Bean's room looks awesome!

Sunday, January 5, 2014

Bean's Nursery

Now that Bean's nursery is officially done, I figured I would write a post about where everything came from.

Top Left: 
  1. Storkcraft Tuscany Glider - from Babies R Us and man was this thing a pain in the ass to order but I'll write more about that later
  2. Hemnes Nightstand - from Ikea
  3. Light Years Orange Table Lamp and White Base - from Land of Nod
  4. Curtains - custom made with fabric from babybedding.com
  5. Zigzag Rug - from Urban Outfitters
  6. Gentleman Rules Print - inspiration from Etsy but Bob made this one to match the nursery
  7. Hanging Around Lamp in Orange - from Land of Nod (on a side note, our lamp had a tear in the fabric when it arrived and LoN has been FANTASTIC about replacing it and sending us a new one)
Top Right:
  1. Hemnes Three Drawer Chest - from Ikea
  2. Serta Changing Pad - from Babies R Us
  3. Orange Changer Pad Cover - from Land of Nod
  4. Ubbi Grey Stainless Steel Diaper Pail - from Babies R Us
  5. Number Print - Bob made this based on the inspiration picture
  6. Alphabet Print - another piece that Bob made based on inspiration from Etsy
Bottom Left:
  1. Expedit Shelving Unit - from Ikea
  2. Cloud B Sleep Sheep - from Babies R Us
  3. Sophie the Giraffe Teether - from Babies R Us
  4. Various toys and books - acquired from my baby shower and coworkers
  5. I Think I Canvas Grey Wide Drawer - from Land of Nod
  6. I Think I Canvas Orange Wide Drawer - from Land of Nod
  7. Vicks Starry Night Cool Mist Humidifier - from Babies R Us
Bottom Right:
  1. DaVinci Annabelle Mini Crib - from Target (we didn't want the crib to take up the entire room so we decided to give a mini crib a shot)
  2. DaVinci Sleepwell Crescent Mini Crib Waterproof 50-coil Mattress - from Target
  3. Solid Antique White Mini Crib Sheets (5"-6" depth) - from babybedding.com (we bought 3 sets)
  4. Solid Orange Mini Crib Skirt - from babybedding.com
  5. Orange, Grey, and White Blanket - crocheted by Bob's grandma (even though she was very against putting those colors together -- it was a surprise for my shower)
  6. Kids Wall Art Tiger Print - from Etsy (a Christmas present from my sister in law)

So there you have it!  The nursery is finally done and we are certainly ready for Bean to make his arrival.

Friday, January 3, 2014

38 weeks

31 weeks

32 weeks

33 weeks

36 weeks

38 weeks

How far along? 38 weeks
Total weight gain: ugh 37lbs...at least I lost a lb between this week's appointment and last
Maternity clothes? I am now in the yoga pants and maternity tops stage
Stretch marks? only on the love handles 
Sleep: overall pretty well -- I get up to pee 2-3 times in the night but fall back to sleep pretty well
Best moment this week: finding out I'm 1.5cm dilated!! woot!
Miss anything? bending over - painting my toe nails -- things of that nature
Movement: sooo much...lots of butt rolls
Food cravings: turkey jerky from trader joe's
Anything making you queasy or sick: nope, feeling pretty good!
Gender: it's a boy!
Labour signs: braxton hicks contractions
Symptoms: heartburn, constantly having to pee, shortness of breath
Belly button in or out? half innie, half outtie -- it's creepy looking
Wedding rings on or off? Off but only because I'm too afraid of them getting stuck on and having to be cut off my hand
Happy or moody most of the time: happy -- we're ready for bean to be here 
Looking forward to: bean's arrival.... i've started to take evening primrose oil and have been rolling around on the yoga ball to help get things moving